Sorrow. The ache that keeps you awake at night.
Hand it over. I will hold it.
~ Justus Black
Peace on Earth. Three blessed words. We hear the phrase spoken, breathe the message. Why then, is it so difficult for human kind to live the credo?
Once children, we played by The Golden Rule: “Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. ” We grew up, we forgot.
Three words. A stretch of the heart; the pull a reminder to soften. Peace on Earth, an opportunity to show compassion toward another. We cry the same tears.
“Hush,” you say. A hand reaches forth, a light shines in darkness. “Walk with me,” is the whisper.
I cast a stone to the ocean. Who am I to judge? The waves lift and carry the offering
to land at your feet.
Do you see now? Connected, our actions ripple and roll from shore to shore and heart to heart. Stand with me. Hand to hand, our fingers weave together, arms reach around the globe. Peace on Earth.
The inspiration for this passage came from the Rifle Co.- Peace on Earth Postcard. As we move toward November 11, the Canadian Remembrance Day and American Veteran’s Day, I felt the message timely. Peace on Earth.
That there is still decency and kindness in the world.This morning on the downtown eastside I sat in my locked car at a busy intersection and witnessed an action that reminded me there is good in people all around us. It also reminded me about judgements.
A woman struggled to get across the busy crossing before the “DON’T WALK “symbol appeared. Confined to a wheel chair and shoeless, she struggled to push the chair forward with her shuffling feet. As she struggled past, I noticed one foot wrapped in bandages and the other covered in a tattered sock.
Suddenly, out from the shadowy streets ran a man, an oddity with his own set of issues. Long hair a mess, eyes unfocused; he jittered forth. This man noticed the woman in the wheelchair and paused. As he bent to whisper words in her ear, he grabbed the handles at the back of the wheelchair and silently pushed the chair through the cross walk to safety, leaving the somewhat surprised woman to negotiate the edge between road and sidewalk. A random act of kindness and compassion toward another.
In fact, I saw several acts of compassion on the downtown eastside from vendors offering a cup of Joe to marginalized people outside the trending coffee shops to two city police officers that knelt beside a forlorn man seated on a blanket. They gently spoke with him.
A reminder to look beneath the surface. One man’s random wish to help another human navigate through this often confused and chaotic world made a view outside the car window a whole lot brighter.
What will you see today and who will you help?
steaming coffee, pelting rain, pinging taps aluminum eaves
veiled in grey, softened light, beauty seen through tears
This is a draft version of the narrator’s “voice;”I will continue to polish the piece. The narrator’s name is, Justus and he is about to leave on a mission. It is from a fictional piece I am writing. This chapter is in the narrator’s POV.
“Justus, Get up! Hurry.”
Urgent words enter my dream. Their pitch notes rising as I attempt to ignore. The voice calling in my ear speaks louder. “Justus wake up.” I push the covers away from my somnolent body and rise.
“It’s your turn. Go.”
Hurrying to the meeting zone, I stumble, the residue of sleep lingering in its peaceful hold, as I step forth. Pushing back a lock of dark hair and coughing to clear my throat, I straighten. It is time.
I belong to a group of watchmen, messengers from the past; we work for the present and future. Our mandate: listen to another’s story, understand and give voice to it; we are conduits between the souls and their living. The universe is made of tiny stories.
Some people call us angels, which we are not. We are messengers, invisible souls; we walk alongside those lost to grief and sorrow. We know your stories well; we are kin.
Imagine a crowd of people, all strangers. Yet, you pause, turn around and take a second glance back. There is familiarity in a gait, knock, or smile. Something about the way that individual speaks captures your momentary attention. You swear you’ve seen that someone before. The sighting haunts and returns. You believe in happenstance yet you are wrong. Events occur for a reason.
You are never alone. That deer you saw, at the precise moment your mind recalls a loved one’s fondness for all rural fauna is not coincidence. The clock that chimes on the anniversary of a loved one’s death, the one you thought broken, is planned. Consider carefully. The face you see, as it flashes by, in a newborn’s glance. Remember these souls from your past.
Every family is an infinite circle of souls. It helps to envision this symbol of continuous unity. The circle enlarges when new members are born or brought in. When death knocks, the circle shrinks. As long as the members hold to one another, reaching forth, the thread that connects remains strong. It is only when one lets go, steps away; when no one reaches back, that the thread that binds, breaks. That is when we enter your world.
It has been awhile since my last assignment, * years to be exact. I recall the details of that mission: to stand beside a family member. Can hope triumph? Love heals; there is nothing it cannot conquer.
Charles grew up working class poor. There wasn’t much money. Emigrating from England with parents and two sisters, settling in a small, bleak town. Land was available and his father saw an opportunity, the chance for more. The land harsh, unforgiving; the family scrapped on.
People living off the bleak land didn’t have much in the way of extras; if they did, they shared with another. They tirelessly toiled, hand to mouth, along with sent up prayers. Religion played an important role in their lives; they buried sweet babies in the local cemetery.
Charles lived respecting the principles of family, stay loyal and inclusive of one another. In later years, he dutifully went to his sister’s side to help a child she bravely and lovingly sheltered from an institution’s walls.
There was military service, an opportunity to travel and fight for freedom in the larger world. Charles believed in worker’s rights and fought to unionize railway workers. He stood alongside the great Tommy Douglas, a Canadian leader, carrying forth the hope and promise of social medicare.
My grandfather Charles was the quietest and gentlest of men. Through simple acts of kindness, small actions filled with compassion, I watched him and learned how to treat others. He watched over our mother, checking in on her; he loved us. His eyes could see the words we never expressed; his heartbeat strong when we faltered. We knew.
A fleeting presence in life, Charles was one of the first social responsibility role models I knew. Stand up, be brave, be kind, are actions he’d support. Sometimes, I imagine him seated at my table. Charles removes his felt fedora and pushes back a strand of hair; his starched white shirt, sleeves rolled to show just a peek of a mermaid’s tail on a forearm, a tattoo from long ago. I smile at the sight of red suspenders, a signature piece he wears clipped to the waistline of pressed khaki pants. Polished boots, the leather gleaming will rest for a spell.
We drink a cup of tea; Charles loved tea time. Sugar biscuits, Alice’s favourite, shine waiting on a floral china saucer. He sips and swallows the steeped brew. After a moment or two, I will update him on the comings and goings of life; he will hang his head. When he looks up, his misty eyes will focus upon mine. We know.
“It’s okay,” I say.
In that instant we both look away; we know it isn’t.
Charles will leave; time is fleeting. Life unrolls. One day I open a newspaper to read an article about a brave action, a loyal stance; a union’s notice lending support for worker’s rights. I sit within the loving circle of family and friends, safe and valued. I’ve learned to listen to the pause between heartbeats; it is there in that fleeting space where he stands beside me.
The previous story began with “Grace” and her granddaughter “Lily” discussing the family ancestry. We were introduced to the character of Grace, her parents, and grandmother, Alice. Part One is filed under the heading, The Story. Please note that this is a “draft.” Enjoy!
Grace’s grandmother, Alice was a reserved woman, set apart from others, by her own choosing. Underneath an aloof facade were secrets kept close to the heart. We didn’t speak much about family, Lily. It just wasn’t done, wasn’t considered polite for the time. As Alice would comment, “One never airs one’s dirty linen.” Private matters were kept private though Grace always sat silently, listening for the hints of dirty linen. However, one did not ask for more information, wishing now, that she had asked Alice to share about herself, wondering was she happy once upon a time? A picture tucked behind glass, inside a pocket watch portrays a young Alice, reluctant smile, head turned toward a man, Charles, her grandfather.
A book of poetry, carefully chosen and scrapped from editions of the Vancouver Sun, suggests a profound sadness clung to Alice’s soul. There were hints of disappointment and loss. Why did Alice refuse to visit the family home? Certainly, never a public woman, Alice remained secluded, not understandable by everyone in the family. Excepting Alice’s sisters. The sisters formed a coven wreath that encircled her. What happened between Alice and her son, my father? The slightest trace of a wince visible upon her face whenever his name was mentioned. “He’s not my son,” were Alice’s crisp words. What do you mean? Grace mused, for she would never ask, what do you mean by that comment? Later, curiosity and unanswered questions, leading to a search of ancestry records for snippets of information. Bits and bobs, as Alice would say. Sleuthing the past for understanding and missing pieces. What did she hope to find? Some of the people, events, and moments, remembered, especially the lowered voices when her name was spoken.
The family had a point. Who shuns family, particularly a grandchild? For Grace’s initial visits with her grandmother ended when she was seven. What happened, Lily asked? I have no clue! They just ended. Perhaps she lost track of time. We always say, later. We never do. That is, until many years later when one afternoon in early winter, I accidentally crossed paths with my grandmother in a local shopping mall.
Grace recalled that afternoon in the mall, until Lily’s questioning brought her back to the present conversation. “Why was Alice called English Alice,” Lily questioned.
My mother named my grandmother, English Alice or Alice from England. I believe it was in jest as my mother found Alice to be unusual, a simple woman who longed to be posh, a woman who put on airs. Alice clung to the image of a fine lady, hair tossed in the fashionable style of the day. Marcel waves, a proper dress, gloves, hat, adorned with jewelry fit for a high tea. Alice presented well, on the surface. Although born in the north of England, my grandmother spoke Queen’s English, the latter which she used effectively, the tight, quick sounds of her words, used to make an arrow sharp point. Alice had a voice that was pure musicality to the ears. There was a pleasant pitch, variations of length, quiet endings to a phrase. As a child, Grace loved to sit at the table and listen to her grandmother’s speech.
It was early autumn when Grace’s grandmother, Alice, was born. The pleasant land was awash with orange and bright green from the trees and their turning leaves. Baptized, Alice Sophia Weston, October 3, 1894, the wee daughter of Joseph Hair Weston, a local cabinetmaker and Emma Weston, registered on the birth document as, “housewife.” Emma was Joseph’s second wife, Alice her only child. Alice was the youngest of five Weston girls, beginning with the eldest, the beautiful Priscilla, then, Mary or Molly, as known to her sisters. There was Jane, also know as Jenny or Geordie, Ellen, and the maverick, Elizabeth, who would marry four times. The family lived in a simple, terraced home located at 32 Bond Court, Newcastle on Tyne, England, fashioned in the polite design of the Victorian era.
Newcastle on Tyne, the city where my grandmother lived, is a metropolitan borough, located in North East England. In Alice’s time, it was a bustling borough. Trade centered around wool, coal mining, lumber and ship building. The town of Newcastle on Tyne owed its name to a castle built in 1080 and the borough’s location to the fast flowing Tyne River. The proud residents felt it to be the best looking city due to its neoclassical style of architecture or Tyneside Classical as was often referred to. It was a style derived from classical Greek and Roman architecture with its symmetrical form and Doric columns. Of all the boroughs in England, Newcastle on Tyne was a lovely, picturesque, almost fairy tale like borough for the Weston sisters to reside within.
Joseph Weston had wished for a son, however his wish was not to be. He had hoped for an heir to teach the fine art of wood craftsmanship necessary to attain exquisite pieces of furniture. Instead, fate provided him with five daughters to support. Joseph’s carpentry skills were highly regarded in the town and people of means, sought his time and exquisite furnishings. Wood working was a lucrative craft that allowed Joseph to provide a satisfactory standard of living for his tender wife and sweet daughters. Still, overworked and exhausted, the volume of work left little time in a day to spend with his family. That was unfortunate, as fate would have it that Joseph would have precious little time to spend with his youngest daughter, Alice.
Emma, an amiable woman, with a gentle sweet nature, enjoyed her chatty, curious daughters and taught them well. Daily lessons involved rituals of etiquette, hand sewing, singing, elocution, and handwriting. Alice was a stellar student and at the age of six, patiently learned to read and write at her eldest sister Pricilla’s side. In her heart, Emma worried, as there was something peculiar about the serious one they fondly called, Wee Alice. The child appeared withdrawn, uncomfortable outside the gardens of their home, avoiding the gazes of friendly neighbors, at times, refusing to speak. Alice was too day dreamy, too lost in herself, thought Emma. Perhaps, it is due to the fact that she is the youngest, Emma mused.
The truth was that Alice was a sensitive, serious soul, often lost within herself and uncomfortable in social situations. The young child would find herself gazing through the windows to view the world beyond, imagining the castle in the borough, climbing the stone steps from the riverside to the castle door. Alice wanted to visit it one day, live in it. For Alice was becoming used to a royal touch and felt superior to the common standing of her present situation.
Afternoons were spent walking along Benwell Lane to the gardens of Adelaide Terrace. “Hurry up, wee Alice! Keep up.” The gardens were a delight to the senses and in the spring and summer; the sisters played amongst the flowers, and sought shelter under the magnificent maple trees. There, in the gardens of Adelaide Terrace, Alice and her sisters would explore the park grounds and study the language of flowers, a pastime that Alice eagerly looked forward to each day. “Tell me again, Mama. What is the language of roses?” “Love wee Alice. Roses speak the language of love!” Alice would always choose the prettiest, the reddest of scarlet rose to pick for her mother. When sad, wee Alice would gather up branches of dead leaves and hand them to her mother.
Always protective, Emma would encircle the child in her arms and hold her close to comfort. It was a comfort, as Alice, possessed an overly anxious disposition, was easily frightened and worried while outside, beyond the safety of the walls of home, feigning illness and displaying a gloomy nature when life did not go as planned. Used to the company and protective nature of her older half sisters, the overly dependent and dreamy Alice did not venture forth without the security of the sisters by her side. Alice came to rely on this sisterhood of support.
Theirs was a contented life, and Emma felt fortunate to have food stores in the pantry and an allowance to run the household in a satisfactory fashion. Little did Emma know that a bitter wind was blowing and a chill would descend upon the household at 32 Bond Court. That is, until December 1,1903, when frost sealed the date of her beloved Joseph’s death. At that moment, life changed for the sisters and their mother. Alice was frightened and fretted over her distraught mother. Alice learned that the heart is a fragile beating organ and a piece of her heart stopped beating for a brief second, momentarily frozen, enough to form the beginnings of a scar that would thicken over time. For now Alice knew the beginnings of heartbreak.
The sister’s education plans were put on hold as Emma sought employment to ensure that the necessities such as food, and a roof, remained over the family’s heads. It was not easy and expectations would be lowered. No longer could the sisters wander the lane, frivolously explore the language of flowers, or entertain any thought of finishing school. Priscilla was placed in charge of the younger sisters’ daily care. Fortunately, a lonely widower, Mr. Alistair Edwards, of 5 Adelaide Lane, was in need of a housekeeper. Ever resourceful, Emma would struggle to make ends meet on a meager salary, working as a domestic servant for Mr. Edwards and his son, William.
Once again, the chilling winds of winter would return, this time for Emma, and paid servitude would be short lived. In 1909, six years after the death of her beloved husband, sweet Emma Weston, would pass over, leaving her grieving daughters to fend entirely for them selves. Young Alice had dealt with prior heartache upon her father’s death, however the death of her mother, changed Alice’s heart. A bigger piece of it hardened to the gentle whisperings of life.
Alice began to realize that one must be careful with one’s heart, protect it, learn to switch it off so as not to feel too deeply for another. On. Off. Done. Still, humans aren’t as simple as light switches and the emotional part of Alice’s soul continued to feel the loss of love. The scar thickened.
By 1911, out of necessity, the Weston sisters were all employed throughout the borough of Newcastle. Mary worked as a waitress, Priscilla and Elizabeth, as domestic servants, Ellen, a box maker at the Bullman Paper Factory, Jenny and Alice, as box packers for the same factory. Jenny and Alice had the monotonous job of packing postcards for sale into the cardboard boxes. Alice, now seventeen, studied the whimsical drawings on the postcards and smiled as she read the quips and quotes beneath. Occasionally, she would tuck a postcard into her dress pocket. Once home, Alice would pin the postcard to the wall. Gazing at the cards, Alice would wonder and dream, traveling to the sights depicted, imagining the stories told.
Every morning, on the walk to the factory, Alice would gaze into the millinery shop window admiring the trimmings on display. Where would she go to, what would she do, wearing a hat so fine? Alice knew that she wanted more than the monotony of packing boxes of Bullman postcards, in fact she felt entitled to more. These seeds of change crept into Alice’s mind and lodged there, where they slowly took root, forcing Alice to look for and plan an escape from a place where possibilities and dreams could never come true.
Every Sunday, Alice and her sisters would walk along the shaded Benwell Lane until it became Adelaide Terrace, headed to Saint John’s Cemetery. Evergreen trees lined the cobblestone path and the cottage gardens brightly bloomed. Lily of the Valley and crocuses were glorious in the awakening spring soil and in the quiet of winter the red holly berries were resplendent against the dark green variegated leaves. The seasons rolled out an ever-changing landscape to delight the sisters’ senses.
To Alice, it was always winter now. Once the sisters rounded the Terrace bend, the parsonage would come into view. It was here that the sisters would pass through the wrought iron gate at the entrance and follow the winding path to their parent’s grave. It was located at the end of a tree lined lane, where, to the right of a small lily pond, a humble row of wooden crosses stood tall against the weathering changes brought about by time and the elements. Joseph and Emma were buried together. Two wooden crosses stood side by side and a small bouquet of red roses lay beneath.
The sisters would gather round the cross forming a united circle of hands. Priscilla, always fashionable in a hat adorned with silk flowers, would lead the sisters in prayer, her whispered breath, “Our Father who art in Heaven.” The words of the familiar prayer gripping Alice, “lead us not into temptation,” for Alice held a secret. Alice was being led into temptation, dreaming a plan to leave her sisters far behind in the borough of Newcastle on Tyne.
Alice knew that Priscilla would sob and hysterics would ensue. The amassing postcards would be her link to the sisters, after all, she could write them letters. Shy and fearful wee Alice, had decided that she had grown up and would bravely leave 32 Bond Street, having had nearly enough of the box packing industry. The problem was when and how. Sensing change in her future, Alice steeled herself for the possibilities that it would bring.
The five Weston sisters continued to work and share their pay, managing to keep their beloved home at 32 Bond Court. It is inevitable that time brings change and once again, it brought changes to Bond Court. Elizabeth was the first sister to separate from the sisterhood, having found a suitor and married, leaving the number of Weston girls in the home to four. Priscilla, who continued to work as a domestic servant for Mr. Alistair Edwards, fell in love with William, his son. It was decided that they would marry. Molly, Jenny, Ellen and Alice continued to manage the house, however, it was becoming difficult to make ends meet within the middle class standards of the community.
It was now 1918 and William Edwards had heard of CPR land available to homestead in Canada. Shortly after, William and Priscilla left England, to claim land in the barren, desolate town of Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan. Elizabeth would remarry three times within eight years, losing each husband to disease, finally returning to 32 Bond Street, with a child. The sisters were aging, the town’s people referred to them as, The Weston Spinsters. Once again, Alice found herself planning her leave from Newcastle. To Alice, the home at 32 Bond Court had never brought the same comfort since her mother’s death and with Priscilla, in Canada, the remaining sisters had not been able to sustain satisfactory income, housekeeping, and companionship. What were the sisters to do?
One day, a Bullman postcard arrived for Alice. It read,
My Dearest Alice,
My heart is breaking as I miss you so, dear, wee sister. What were we thinking to leave England? William is busy establishing a shop in the town. We were unprepared for the circumstances we find ourselves in. The town is undeveloped; I cannot shop as we did in Newcastle. I keep a garden, however, it must provide for us over the long, harsh and never ending cold winter. I am alone with a young child, as our properties are far and between one another. There is no help to be had. I cannot bear this life without my sisters close at hand. You must come to me. There are many farmers looking for wives. You, Jenny, and Molly would be appropriate choices. Elizabeth can find lodging as a domestic.
Please consider my request. We shall make room. My heart breaks for you, dear Alice. It is time for you to leave Newcastle.
It was decided that the sisters would sell 32 Bond Court and leave Newcastle, England for life in Canada. Jenny, Molly, Ellen and Alice walked their final steps along Adelaide Terrace to Saint John’s Cemetery, pausing to pray over their parent’s gravesite. It was a bittersweet moment for Alice, for in her heart she knew she would never return to England. The winds blew and Alice felt the feather light touch of winter’s chill caress her cheek. Alice adjusted her collar higher, turned her back on the two crosses, and walked away, never to return.
The sisters, Jenny, Molly, Ellen, and Alice, set sail from Liverpool, England on October 3, 1919 aboard the SS Minnedosa, a steam ocean liner built to withstand the rough autumn seas encountered on the journey across the Atlantic. Seasick and heartsick, emotionally, the sister’s hearts were still in England. Alice telegraphed to Priscilla,
October 5, 1919
My Dearest Sister,
We are finding the sailing difficult. The seas are rough and we are all ill, experiencing seasickness effects. We long to disembark and set foot on solid ground! The Captain invited us to join him for dinner this evening. None of us had appetites however we enjoyed the banter and prestige of being seated at the Captain’s table. Such a gentleman.
Sister, we are half way to the end of our ocean journey! We look forward to disembarking in Canada and beginning the final journey to you.
The Weston sisters arrived in Quebec, Canada, on October 10, 1919. The immigration document states that they were to be handed over to the care of their brother-in-law, William Edwards. Alice was relieved to disembark the ship and stand on solid ground although she swore that the ground continued to move and sway for many days after. The CP Railroad transported the sisters through the hills and valleys, finally depositing them in the tiny prairie town of Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan. The sisters were ill prepared for the cold, harsh winter nights that were to follow. Alice shivered as she pulled the thin covers over her body. There was a foreboding feeling in the frigid air, a warning that Alice took seriously to heart. Alice knew that she needed to leave Moose Jaw and once again began to plan an escape.
“Grandma, wouldn’t it be hard to leave your parents behind? Grace felt a tightening in her chest. Lily continued, “Even though Alice’s mom and dad are dead! Still it must have been difficult for Alice to leave them alone in the cemetery.” Grace felt the chill of winter upon her skin and resolved to turn up the thermostat. Perhaps I am coming down with something, Grace mused although she knew this wasn’t the reason for her discomfort. I imagine it was heart wrenching, Grace replied.
Grace recalled that sad day when life punched back. It was exactly noon when the car pulled away from the curb. It was not really a surprise as Grace noted furniture disappearing from the basement bedroom, boxes leaving the house during the dark of night, bits and pieces of a life packed up or tossed.
Grace resolved that she would not show emotion or tears and even managed to graciously smile, masterful at the art of concealing emotion, tidying up the unpleasant bits, all the while screaming behind the mask of the face she wore. Then, just as quickly, Grace quickly turned her back, breaking down, tears flowing. It happens quickly; a punch of heartbreak and one is left changed, the heart, a bit scarred, the body, a little more cautious, and distant. Bits and pieces of life’s memories packed away deep inside, suddenly exploding from the soul. One can’t catch all of the bits, blown away forever, the secrets, the neglect, and pretence, are all that remain. Life looks and feels different as you piece the salvaged bits back together, hoping to rediscover the beauty.
This wasn’t the first time that Grace had briefly turned her back on another to protect herself, hide the falling tears. Perhaps, Alice and I are more alike than different, Grace thought. “Be careful,” whispered the winter wind. Alice shared something in common with her granddaughter, Grace. Two women, both knowing heartbreak, both inclined to show a quiet indifference in its presence, to hide their pain behind a mask with a reluctant smile. Pretence. Both frozen in time, waiting. For what, you ask? For the other to step forth.
Lily’s voice brought Grace’s awareness to the moment, “What happened in early winter?” Perhaps, you would say, an act of hope occurred. A chance for renewed hope presented itself or was it a chance encounter on that fateful winter afternoon in a mall? Perhaps there is a pre determined plan sent forth from the heart of the universe upon our birth, a blue print, with a map of events to follow.
Cashmere, the mention alone, beautiful to speech. Cashmere, pronouncing it, the syllables, smooth, clear, luxurious, as the unit of spoken language rolls off the tongue. Cashmere. Cashmere. Cashmere. Say it; repeat it for surely, you will fall captive under its spoken spell. A fine textured fiber, light, strong, and soft, shorn goat’s hair. A garment made from cashmere is certain to provide excellent insulation and instant appeal.
It was at a Nordstrom’s sale that I spotted the cashmere wrap, my fingers gently caressing the soft fibers, wondering if, perhaps? Walking away, uncomfortable as the sales clerk loomed too close. After all, I am not really the confident cashmere type of woman or am I? A woman who elevates jeans and basic tees with faux pearls. Sipping a latte, imagining myself wrapped in the luxurious cashmere, dreaming, perhaps.
It was the allure. The light, soft touch of the fibers that drew me back, the seductive charm of the soft weaves. Choosing the wrap with the diagonal, cable knit pattern, as it must look different, unexpected. An ordinary, predictable cashmere wrap would never do. Choosing the shade of grayed, west coast, wintery clouds, wrapping myself in bespoke luxury, I could not resist the self-indulgent purchase of cashmere. For I was buying an emotion if one can even do that, capturing a sentiment.
Wearing it felt divine. Suddenly, no longer just another woman in a crowd. “Who is that woman wearing the cashmere?” It is simple, casual. When tossed about the shoulders, the weave gives the wearer an elevated look of effortless elegant glamour. I can attest to the warmth.
My mother is opening her gift, delighting in the patterns on the delicate tissue papers that envelope it. “Oh my goodness,” she exclaims. There is a pause of silence. Do you like it, Mom? Don’t worry, mom. If it needs dry cleaning, I’ll take care of it for you. My mother whispers, “ I’ve had two cashmere sweaters in my life. Your father bought me one. I was about seventeen and he bought me a cashmere sweater for my birthday. It was very beautiful. Smart looking. A dark navy with a small collar.” My mother gestures to her neck. “So lovely. We went skiing and I wore it.” For a moment, my mother, a vision of youth in all its splendour, her petite frame, classical good looks, widow’s peak of raven hair, coiffed and flipped, one so beautiful in navy cashmere set against the winter white wonderland. “We went skiing and I got soaked. We hiked to his cabin and your father lit a fire, hanging the cashmere sweater over the stovepipe to dry. The heat from the pipe burned through the back of the cashmere. That was the end of it. This is beautiful, Grace. Dark navy. I’m so grateful.” It’s black Mom, you deserve it. “No, it’s dark navy, it’s the colour of the sweater your father bought me so many years ago. Thank you, you’re too good to me.” Capturing a sentiment.
Daily Prompt~ I Was Here
The opportunity to gift a letter to the future inhabitants of a newly discovered planet.
“But eyes are blind. You have to look with the heart.”
― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
As you stand on the surface of this newfound world, I ask you to pause and consider my words. It has taken a lifetime to find them, for that is the nature of the beast. One must live a lifetime or in the case of the inhabitants of Earth, millions of life times to discover the truth. Which is very simply, love.
Your curiosity will lead you to create. Carefully, approach the precious landscape, respecting and protecting all that you discover. Once destroyed, it cannot easily be rebuilt. Accept your fellow man. Forget about boundaries to designate my land from yours. Didn’t we learn? Wars are fought over invisible and man-made lines. Be respectful and share what resources you have with those in need. One world.
Build your schools and welcome your children through the doors. Promote literacy and encourage problem-solving strategies. Educate them against hatred and cruelty toward another. Watch them at play, you will learn from their innocent wisdom. Be observant to suffering and offer support to ease the struggle. Cherish your brilliant, your creative, your everyday, for it these individuals that will lead. Write your mission statement around social responsibility. We cry the same tears; we feel the same pain. One world.
Cherish your elderly and those vulnerable to life. Keep them safe and ease their struggles and pain. They are your elders and your wounded, deserving of compassion. Spare no expense to bring some comfort, hope and joy into their grayed world. Humanity.
My world forgot as it spun on an axis of greed. It is not too late for you, though. You are fortunate to have a chance, an opportunity to create a world of beauty, promise, and hope, a world that promotes peace. Are you ready to take on this responsibility? It is not about you, it is simply about love for another.
It is important, this deep and personal need to create simple, beautiful spaces. Whether it is, cuttings gathered from nature, vignettes, gathered bits and pieces, sparkle and shine, or a simple lit candle shining brightly in the dark. Our spaces comfort through their serenity, simplicity, and simple beauty. A book close at hand, a blanket to snug beneath, and a mug of hot tea or coffee to round off the bliss. Why do we choose to nest the way we do, our individual styles often different? Our homes tell our stories. Look and listen.
It works like this. The beauty and creativity that my mother possessed now passed along to me. “Always look at an item with fresh eyes, see the beauty in the broken, repurpose a piece,” are her wise words. Fill your spaces with only that which inspires you or tells a meaningful story. Sometimes, our stories are sad. For that reason, I choose to feather my nest with that which makes me smile, the pretty, the broken, the chipped, evidence of love and beauty. Imperfect is beautiful.
The hunt to discover an object of beauty is compelling and sourcing the area for an affordable price point is addicting, an alluring drug to the soul. No apologies, I seek beautiful store-bought and found items. Through writing, decorating, planting and doing, my heart heals. Comfort and joy await those who enter through the door. Spaces are pretty, soft, unusual, old, and consciously created, staged for effect, purposely creating a careful lived in shabbiness of chic.
A promise to myself, many years ago, that when I became a mother or grandmother, I would be the best that I could be. When they forgot, I remembered. My family would know love; there would never be a question or a doubt. No one left, forgotten, dismissed, omitted. Always, forgiven, always loved. I would have wished as much as a child and now as an adult, those wishing words sent forth on the chilly winter winds. Some can’t hear them, though. Perhaps, you will catch the whisperings in the silent spaces beneath the twinkling stars.
This holiday season I have left many of the Christmas decorations tucked away within the storage space. It will be a simple celebration. There will be fewer family gathered round the table. The children are grown and are beginning and continuing their own holiday traditions. In time they will appreciate that it isn’t about them, it is about others. Love is always about others.
On display, there is a wooden Santa, a symbol of love and generosity. A tinsel tree adorned with glass birds to sparkle in the winter’s light, a reminder that spring will surely come and there will be new beginnings. The light will shine a little brighter. Treats, decadent, rich and chocolate, sit in a glass bowl, delights for the soul. Offerings. Mini white lights fill the glass vases and miniature evergreen trees adorn a table. A glittery box houses a miniature nativity, the Christmas Story. There is a boxwood wreath to grace the front door. All is calm.
There is an undeniable presence of generosity, compassion, and kindness that gently fills the air. If only the generous Christmas spirit could stay throughout the year. Note the hope that tenderly rises after the storm has passed. If only these heart-felt beats would live on and on. It is possible. Love one another. We share this amazing world. Stand for peace and harmony. Forget self, reach out and offer a hand. Forgive. Celebrate family and remember, love is always about others.
I wish you love and happiness. Forgive another, start the journey to heal, reach out a hand in friendship, and surround your world with love and joy. Thank you for sharing your posts, stories, blogs, re blogs, tweets, “likes,” comments, and writing support. All is bright!
Merry Christmas to you and yours!
x ~ Grace